I'm very insecure about publishing.
Only a few weeks ago, publishing From the Ashes was a dream far off in the distance. Actually reaching it was a silly fantasy I had, not really believing the day would ever come where I'd have to worry about that rough, rocky shore of publishing.
Now that I've considerably closed the distance between me and that "rocky shore," I'm realizing it looks much more difficult to navigate than it did from far off.
Maybe I'd be a little more comfortable if I'd secured a publisher. At least I would feel like I'd been "accepted" by editors, and other people because they liked my story.
See, my mom has read my story like… ten thousand times for me. Okay, not ten thousand but probably around ten times. She's helped me edit it each time, and she always tells me it's really good, and it's getting a lot better and all the stuff a mom has to say. She's very critical, don't get me wrong.
As I'm reading through it one last time (as a reader, not an editor), I haven't found a single gramatical error. And I'm already on page 200.
Now maybe I'm just blind. But I have found a lot of stuff to reword, to make things flow better.
Anyway my biggest insecurity is… what will everyone else think about it?
I know some of you have read through it for me as beta readers and such, but that was the first few drafts.
(Very embarrassing that I actually let you read such a rough draft… I know…)
But what if you don't like the final version? What if no one likes it?
That'd be really awkward.
Anyway, what are you guys insecure about?